And they went to another village. Luke 9:56.
Relationship with God is not based on your behavior. Relationship is based on your communion with Him. Anyone who thinks that his relationship is based on his behavior will give up his relationship sooner or later. Anyone who gives up his relationship because of his behavior is a legalist.
There is a difference between getting discouraged over your behavior and being disappointed in your behavior. I am disappointed in my behavior many times, but I am not discouraged with the relationship! Why? Because Jesus had a nice way about Him of going right ahead with disciples who fell and sinned again and again. Read it in Luke 9:55, 56. They wanted to call fire down and burn up the miserable Samaritans. Jesus rebuked them, and He may rebuke you and me, too. But He kept walking with them. They went on to another village--together.
If it weren't for this realization of God's continuing walk with us, many of us would have given up long ago. "The one thing essential for us in order that we may receive and impart the forgiving love of God is to know the love that He has to us. Satan is working by every deception he can command, in order that we may not discern that love. He will lead us to think that our mistakes and transgressions have been so grievous that the Lord will not have respect unto our prayers and will not bless and save us. In ourselves we can see nothing to recommend us to God, and Satan tells us that it is of no use; we cannot remedy our defects of character. When we try to come to God, the enemy will whisper, It is of no use for you to pray; did not you do that evil thing? Have you not sinned against God and violated your own conscience? But we may tell the enemy that 'the blood of Jesus Christ his Son cleanseth us from all sin.' When we feel that we have sinned, and cannot pray, it is then the time to pray. Ashamed we may be and deeply humbled, but we must pray and believe."--Thoughts From the Mount of Blessing, p. 115.
Take courage today, for Jesus continues to walk with you as you continue to seek fellowship with Him day by day. When we remain in fellowship with Him, He is enabled to do His work of grace in our lives. Sooner or later, His power will be greater than our failures, and He will complete the work that He has started.